Life · Steps to Adulthood

fading away

(Third week of May.)

I’m in a slump. A rut. The pause button of my life has been pressed.

Never before have I understood stood “living for the weekend” better than I do at this point in my life. I’ve been working at my new full-time job for three weeks now, and with every passing day I feel more like a ghost of myself. When work finally ends, and I’m allowed to go home, all I really have the energy and desire to do is to take a nice warm bath, eat a yummy dinner, and go to bed. It’s actually quite pathetic, and I am happy to admit it. Acceptance is the first step to recovery, after all. I miss the days when I could stay up till 2:00 in the morning, and wake up for my 8:00 class unfazed. Nowadays, I’m in bed by 10:30, and just waking up in the morning feels like a great accomplishment.

Part of me, a very large part, is terrified that I’m going to let myself get stuck in this shadow of a life, and before I know it, I’ll be thirty, living alone, spending my days watching Matlock reruns on TV and eating microwave dinners before going to bed at 9:30 precisely. I spent my teenage years dreaming and yearning for the future days when I would be an independent adult with time and money to spare. I imagined myself going on adventure after adventure, having grand nights out with my friends, never having to sacrifice a social life for work. Now that I am an adult, I honestly don’t know how to handle myself. The child in me still wants all of those naïve daydreams, but reality is a cruel manager.

Until I can get a grip on this strange thing called adulthood, I’ll just have to follow the advice of my good pal Charlie Brown. I shall only dread one day at a time.

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Arts and Crafts · Holidays

pipe dreams and pumpkins

Last night, I had a dream. In it, I woke up and looked out the window to discover that piles of new, glittering snow had covered the ground overnight. It was like some giant being had dropped a sack of sparkles and marshmallows on the world. School had been canceled, and happy children were making snowmen and creating the imprints of angels on the frosty ground. It was perfect, and beautiful, and all was swell.

Then, I really did wake up. I looked out the window, as I do every morning, half expecting there to be snow and ice covering the ground. But, alas. Instead of a winter-y wonderland, I saw a cloudy, humid, 90 degree summer day. Ah, well.

There’s nothing more beautiful than snow. | 17 Things We Learned From

It’s no secret that I love winter. My sisters think I’m crazy, but it’s the best season there is. With winter comes sweaters, scarves, comfy socks, hot chocolate, snow, reading in front of a cozy fire, and, best of all, Christmas. What could be better? Sadly, that wonderful time of the year won’t be arriving for another few months. For the time being, I’ll just have to do my best to enjoy the second greatest season of the year: Fall.

The tell-signs of fall are beginning to spring up everywhere. Halloween candy is already lining grocery store shelves. Pumpkin flavored everything is taking back its place in the world of confectionery goodness. Even some of the leaves are beginning to change. I’m just hoping some of that nice, cool, autumn weather is following close behind.

In the spirit of this upcoming season of pumpkins, I decided to peruse Pinterest for some fall decorating ideas. (Side note: I love Pinterest. I also love decorating. I will, without a doubt, be mentioning Pinterest quite often in my blog posts. I may also share my latest endeavors in the art of DIY decorating. Just a warning.) In my search, I discovered a pin for 50 fall projects.

50 Fall Projects for your enjoyment! Includes crafts, food, and home decor ideas!

Being the generous person I am, and partially to give this post purpose (alliteration!), I have decided to share the link with you, my lovely readers. I do this in the hope that you will be inspired to do some fun projects of your own, and to encourage you to embrace the wonderful season that is just around the corner. So go, check out Vanessa Brady’s blog, Tried & True, and see if something catches your eye.

Enjoy!